I did not need to know about this!

Like I’m not neurotic enough… An entire website and message board dedicated to the two week wait. oh dear.

feel free to say hi

Until last night, I had no idea that i could stalk my readership. I thought sitemeter was great just because it enabled me to see my numbers. Upon stalking my readers, I see that my humble blog is linked in blogs I didn’t even know existed. I’ve gotta get better at negotiating the blog [...]

bang

A bit of analysis, a huge amount of physical pain, bleeding as though I’ve been sliced open and an extremely tired and hormonal me suggests that perhaps I had a chemical pregnancy. If not, something else has thrown my thyroid way out of whack again and I feel (and look) like shit. I’ve barely [...]

New beginnings

Ducks has just left for work. Today, she’s handing in her 4 weeks notice. I wrote her a great resignation letter last night. She won’t be returning to that workplace after Christmas. Aside from having to put up with some of the most power hungry bosses in the world, Ducks has realised that working in [...]

Ding Dong the witch is dead!

I am running off to drop a friend at the airport but I just had to take a quick opportunity to say HE’S GONE! Midway through the Women’s Circus performance last night the MC announced his downfall and the room erupted in cheers and screams. It was a wonderful energy and an amazing way to [...]

no more straw to clutch – 4.29pm

I’m bleeding. And relieved. Poor Ducks seems really disappointed. She’s made some big life decisions (about which I’ll tell you another time) this weekend that have really put her in a great head space for baby making.
For now, I’m happy to be out of limbo and thankful that I can step away from googling all [...]

4pm update

Still no blood though I’m convinced it’ll be here anytime now. I’m feeling a bit crampy and going to the toilet every 5 minutes. Poor Ducks, who I earlier accused of not being invested enough in this TTC caper is now on edge and asking me every half hour if I have ‘any news.’ [...]

torture

You can imagine what’s going on in my head now that it’s been more than 24 hours since the cramps and spotting came and went…and still no period. I don’t want to be having these thoughts. It’s 14dpo. But maybe it’s only 13dpo. I did seem to have EWCM for a really long time this [...]

13dpo, out

Negative on the super sensitive HPT and now cramps and spotting. I think we can officially say I’m out. I’m not super devastated but I sure am pre-menstrual and teary.

crazy making

I am officially not coping. I have bad nausea and if I’m not nauseous I have horrible reflux. My boobs are the size of watermelons. I’m really absent minded. I’m teary. I’m tired but I can’t sleep. I have completely lost my zen and my imaginary symptoms are rife. Oh dear. I’m going to try [...]